Sometimes , I’m able to remove the negative thinking I so often have and I become absolutely fearless. The times when I can say to hell what people think or say, and do something because it’s in my heart, I am happiest. This is really hard to keep going as a constant way of life. Because naturally, to some extent we do care what people think. Suddenly I’m reminded of my Mother, whenever she seemed the happiest , it was when she was doing things that either completely embarrassed me , or when she was doing things that made me really proud. Either way, I realize now, that it doesn’t matter, as long as you can keep that light in your eyes, you are living. People don’t kill dreams, but the fear they have does.
I’ve lived so much of my life in fear, in a subconcious state of ” what’s the point” I thought, if I start working on this one thing, I might be missing out on another, and subsequently ending up doing neither, now what good is that? As I get older, I realize how precious time is, and that I shouldn’t be ” doing neither” I should be doing anything and everything that makes me smile, and that is going to be my New Years resolution for 2010.
